GoodNight Plants..

I am starting to get fit!! Just thought I'd say....I have been dragging myself down to the gym about twice a week, sometimes three. And it's going well! I went today, and lost 350 calories! And I have the blisters from the rowing machine to prove it! So, that's going well! :)

Also, I haven't told you this yet. But I'm single again....yeah I know right, sucks!! But I have to admit, I don't mind it. I quite enjoy being single! A free bird! Flying openly into the world!

Wow....Try as I might, I am finding it so difficult to write here tonight...I have just also been reading through my posts from the first one I ever wrote to this one! It's awed me just how much I have changed! My writing had been messy and slightly childlike...whereas I like to this that now it's a tad more grownup, with still a bit of fun weaved in!
So anyway, for tonight I bid you farewell

Also, before I go, what do you think of my new background!? Of stars in space? It's so pretty!! :) I am certainly thrilled with it! So, anyway, Goodnight!

Your Are The Only Exception x

Do you know, I was talking to a good friend today about love...and we both agreed that we don't have anybody in our lives at the moment that we were happy to give ourselves to and let ourselves go. And it got us talking about how we don't belive anyone should have to 'belong' to anone else, or feel the pushing pressure on things such as holding hands and even kissing! In fact I stood right up and said 'I do not want anyone right now. I am single and I love it! I don't want to feel any pressure and I am happy as I am!' Then I stopped for a second and thought to myself. Am I really happy as I am? Of course, I certainly don't love anyone enough to date them....then I thought of you. And realised, you were the exception of everything I had said! If you came up to me and said 'I love you!' Everything I had just said about not dating, or kissing or holding hands would go straight out the window and I know that I would give myself to you. You would have my heart on a silver dish with it served with herbs and a sauce to intesify it! Because I know, that I will not be able to help myself! So as I thought 'You my love, are my only exception...' The paramore song came into my head and I found a smile forming on my face. So when I arrived home from school today I found myself repeatedly listening to 'Paramore-The Only Exception'. And I am thinking of you....now and always. I hope you enjoy listening to this song as I have...I posted the video with lyrics so that you could read them as you listen.

To you my love, this all applies. x

P.S...I just thought I'd let you know, I love you x

I found this poem and made me think of you..

Love is beautiful? Yeah right...Now, tell me something truthful..

I stumbled across an interesting song today whilst I was going about my everyday business after band...It seemed to latch onto me and make me freeze with whatever I was doing at the time. It was a lovely song, absoloutely beautifully written. I found myself standing in the middle of the kitchen, a small, private, sneaky smile creeping at my face threatening to brighten my mood even more today. And then as I listened more to the song I heard a lyric which made me scoff and my smile slip off my face and darken my mood. It said....'Love is a beautiful thing. It is perfect.' What a lie that is! Of course, I do agree, love CAN be lovely but most of the time it feels like crap. (Excuse the language). It pulls you down and sucks all the energy out of you. You miss them so much when you're not with them so that when you are, you try to make the most of it. Which of course, never goes to plan. You end up being dissapointed and ignored. Then you leave feeling downhearted and sad. But then, for some reason you still love them! So you wait and wait for the next time to see them. And you count down the days. And you get so excited and nervous, you're close to bursting. Then you see them. And it starts all over again. Now, I don't wish to sound like a 'buzzkill'. I totally understand how love can be delightful and brilliant. Yet, I believe you have to work towards the wonders of true love. At the beguinning it can hurt like hell. Especially if that one person, who you believe is your 'soulmate' doesn't feel the same way towards you. Or if you don't know whether they do or not, and you're left wondering everday. And when you see them you don't know how to act because you don't know if they know or not. However, if you're lucky enough to find your true soulmate, it is true love right from the beguinning and you both know it. So you're saved from all the pain and hurt.

I suppose all that was a bit depressing...? But I guess that song lyric just got me thinking. Anyway, just got back from a 3 day weekend at band! It's been ridiculously hot, and my mood had it's ups and downs butall in all it has still been a brilliant weekend!! I am not going to read a book, put some cool music on...and eat lots of easter chocolate! :)
(I'm not fat and unhealthy...I swear! I don't know how I get away with it! Haha!)
Bye bye lovely readers....I hope you all had a fantastic easter!
P.S.......It's nearly going to be a 50th post!!! Woop woop! xxxx

I miss you, But I'm trying not to care anymore x

I miss you. So much. I wish you were here with me. I want to be the one you fall in love with. The one who you call up just for a chat. The one who recieves that special valentines card. I want to be the one you go on a midnight stroll with and the one you're heart aches for when we are not together. I want you to love me like I love you. I've tried to forget. To not remember. To stop this. But I can't. And I have learnt that it's no use trying to forget. It only hurts more.

LIAR

 Guilt really weighs you down doesn't it? It's like someone is standing on top of me pushing me down. Or like when someone buries you at the beach and no matter how hard you try to break free you can't. I try so hard to be nice. So hard to be a good person. But it makes me feel bad inside. Because to be kind sometimes you have to lie. And that really crushes me inside. I try so hard because I don't want to hurt anybody, don't want to make anybody sad! And I hate having to appear strong all the time...Sometimes I just want to break down and cry. But I don't! Because I don't cry.

It's just a bit difficult at the moment. I'm really starting to feel the pressure, the pressure to make people proud all the time and get things absoloutely spot perfect! It's so difficult but at the same time I want to. I WANT to make people proud! I want to make myself worthy...because I have always wanted to be really good at something...something that people can turn to me and say 'wow, you're really good!' And finally I have and I want to keep it that way! I have a dream, I have had it for a long time. And finally I have been given the chance to fulfill that dream! It's what I have been 'building' up too! And now finally the chance has come! Someone has opened the door for me and the mat says 'Welcome Georgia!' but to enter I have to take a test...It's an easy test. as easy as writing the word 'hello'...I just hope I am ready.



But on the bright side of all this....it's my birthday on Thursday! A year older....14 at last! :) Wahoo!! Well, untill next time...sweet dreams everyone xxxx

I Was Your Romeo and You Were My Juliet

I am really getting into the Overtones! I have asked for their album for my birthday! They're awesome :) These are just 2 of my favourite songs! I love the top one cause it's fun and bouncy to sing along too....I like the bottom one because it has such beautful lyrics and really pretty song....It doesn't have the proper backing music video but I think it makes it sound so pretty :) Enjoy xx
  

I don't want to. I don't want to keep it. I hate it! I want to get rid of it...erase it. It hold such bad memories to me. It's a part of my life I want to forget about. My book I mean. The one I spent 3 years on. But I hate it now. I just want it to go but everyone's telling me to keep it. But I feel like it's pulling me back. Telling me I can't progress. I'm no better. I think I am going to get rid of it no matter what anyone thinks. Someone said I might want to use parts of it in another book...I don't think I will. I think once I delete it, it will be a weight lifted off me. A new start. A good start! I'm looking forward to it! and I think this one will have a happy ending..